The universe seems to give me little things at the best of times. Two days ago I realized, for the first time in my life, that I would actually be okay. It’d been 8 years since I cried from happiness.

I finally know what it means to say I survived sexual abuse.

MARY SHANNON IS AMAZING. STOP WHINING.

Wish I could remember what happened in that college humor dream I had, I know it involved Streeter. And, GOD, of all the people to dream about, PATRICK?! HELLO?! PATRICK! I've never dreamt this much about an obsession, let alone one this weird. I mean, these people truly aren't famous. And, I am a creeper.

okk 14 year olds are popular on tumblr, I'm rethinking this place entirely now. Where have the days gone where kids stayed where they belonged at least until they were annoying 16 year olds?

So my day has been based upon reading tumblr and checking college humor at least 5 times(since 9am, because hello, idc when work starts, put new videos up). I'm also so tired I'm debating on whether to shower and then go to sleep or just go to sleep when my dad gets here. This is troubling because I haven't showered since friday. I don't wanna change my skirt, though. I wanna live in this thing for eternity, it's amazing.

Also, holy hell my layout and icon look terrible on this screen. They look good on the lappy.

oh my GOD, will I never learn my lesson? How in the hell can Cold Case come up with the most heart wrenching stories fucking EVER. It almost never fails to make me want to weep and hold the victim, especially when it's kids. The worst most heartless murderers and the most likable, naive, heart breaking victims, omg.

:C my friend just texted me (at 4:30 in the morning) that she's dying because her and her boyfriend(of less than a year, and they've broken up before) broke up 3 days ago. She's telling me she's carved his name into her arm and wants to kill herself and all I want to do is slap her then hug her to death. She's saying she hasn't slept and can't eat without throwing up. If I could drive I'd be at her house in a second.

Their relationship was sickeningly cute, but she is/was WAY too attached to him and the entire relationship. She just turned 16, which is why she doesn't understand the error of her ways, and her entire world is her boyfriend. I've always wanted to have a heart to heart with her but she's the type to put up a wall very quick and I didn't want to fight with her when I was only trying to help. And I can't really say anything like that now either. I just want to make her feel better so bad. I know nothing I say will make it feel better, only time will do that.

Few things:(Also, I'm allowed to be pretentious and elitist about my IPS and allowed to come late to the s2 fangirl game. I feel I've earned this right by bringing Fred, fangirly wise and personally(still makes me feel all happy inside when I see him on screen), to the fans. You're welcome.)

The current episode of In Plain Sight rocks my world.

It's exactly what IPS is, shitty ass story and amazing Mary/Marshall, together and alone.

Marshall cried a couple times, GAH, and infront of Mary, GAH, and helped her with Brandi when he was the one truly in ~pain~ on the way home when Mary was being a drama queen.

MARSHALL LOVES MARY, WITHOUT FAIL, WITHOUT JUDGMENT, WITHOUT A FLICKER OF DOUBT, HE LOVES THIS WOMAN. Got it? Good. Raph can go jerk off in a lion's den until Brandi comes around.

Eleanor on the other hand, not growing on me. She just idk, I don't like her.

And finally, kind of in love with Marshall again. The whole 'rain coat' thing was a lot more about him than it was Brandi, and GOOOOOOOOD I love him for it. Did someone say SHIPPY AS FUCKING HELL moment?!

Next episode is some family drama, the whole secret half-sister thing.

WHEN OH WHEN WILL MARSHALL CUDDLE MARY WHILE SHE CRIES AND FIX HER AND ALL HER WOUNDS AND MAKE SWEET SWEET LOVE TO HER DOWN BY THE FIRE SIDE?! And I also want to see his casa, just...fucking because. Bitch better have a red couch.


SIGH. I miss you Freddy.

angels and demons was really good!

I was like omg ewan, then OMFG EWAN, than OMFG EWAN IS ALIVE AND HERO, then OMFG EWAN IS GONNA BE POPE, then OMFG IT WAS NOT WHO WE THOUGHT IT WAS OMG EWAN. OMFG it should've ended when ewan was parachuting in heroic like.

UNF UNF UNF

so...I'm graduating this year, i over came my almost crippling social anxiety enough to go back to school, saturday night I was on broadway in new york city not a block from steven pasquale, and i SCREAMED and FREAKED OUT over

PAM BEESLEY PREGNANT


EEEEEEEPPP. I have not been this excited for the office since Jim asked Pam to dinner, omfg. They really stepped up their game this season.

PS: omg the fans are such fucking whiners. it's a TV show, what did they expect? Personally, even if it isn't realistic, when Jam lives happily ever after I will be happy.

4 months until jam baby talk and 4 months until institutionalized!house. and that csi finale was weak as shit compared to last season's closer and this season's opener, or shit in general, sick of langston and sick of zomg i'm so hard and amazing riley, get fucked. Plus, way to further fuck love fans you homophobic assholes.

SOOO, back from new york yesterday and the first day was entirely bipolar. I was amazed and excited, and then miserable and cried in time square and at dinner because i just, ugh, so many things that day including no sleep and my feet hurting worse than they ever had. Anyways, we did touristy things and frankly had I not been preoccupied by my feet burning 99% of the time i'd have loved it so so much more. The best part I guess was more personal than anything we did/saw, I actually felt comfortable in my own skin. At school, at the mall, in frickin walmart I feel idk, bad about myself for any reason, and for some reason just walking down the street there I felt at ease. I guess it was because people don't stop what they're doing and judge you, it's not worth it in such a fast paced place. I loved jekyll and hyde in greenwhich village and chinatown(omg chinatown how i love thee) and kinda liked everything. I know eventually I have to go back on my own time and really experience it. It feels like a dream, even when I was there I had to take a second a few times and go "I'm in new york fucking city!"

and i lol'd a little when I noticed an area where a scene from one of my favorite episodes of criminal intent was filmed.

UGGGH House made me all emotional. I didn't expect to give a crap that Kutner died, but suicide always makes me sick to my stomach. House's reaction was expected and lovely, why everyone was so surprised, well until Wilson at the end, idk. I'm going to miss Kutner :(


And next week, WTF, HOUSE AT WILSON'S APARTMENT, that's all well and good. BUT WTF CUDDY?! Hameron was a LIFE TIME ago, stop being a jealous hag when there's no reason to be, not only because Cameron is not in love with House anymore but because YOU AND HOUSE ARE NOT, AND WILL NEVER BE, TOGETHER. UGH, get over with the huddy sex so we can end this shit, like yesterday.